In this final section, we’ll be talking about the lasting impact and legacy CP left behind in the fansubbing scene after his passing. Again, you all will (hopefully) get to read various accounts by different members of the group about this.
I still remember September 8th, 2015 like it was yesterday. I think I had just gotten home a short while ago from work, when I heard the shocking and unexpected news that our dear friend CP had passed away. It was way too sudden and surreal for me. I remember it feeling like a bad dream. So many emotions flowed within me and I honestly didn’t know how to react. That day, a part of me died. I’m sure a lot of other people who knew him felt the same way. To say I was really sad and shocked would be the biggest understatement in history. It actually felt like my heart was shattered into a billion pieces. At that point in time, I had know him for roughly around seven years. After it all settled in a few days later, I remember feeling an immense sadness and emptiness, as if a part of me was torn away. Definitely not the kind of feeling you want to have and experience very often, if ever.
During his time fansubbing, CP inspired many subbers, both new and old. He taught people his “tricks of the trade” and even became a mentor for some subbers. Just seeing his passion for subbing and his dedication/hard work rubbed off on others. We were all lucky to have such an inspirational person working with us. From one of the people who was greatly inspired and motivated by him, I can say it is a fact. I know many other subbers will agree to this. If I were to name him as a part of a machine, he was like the engine. Always motoring along and keeping everything going. This is yet another fact that can’t be overstated.
I remember at one point after his passing, I really considered retiring from fansubbing. The motivation to sub had diminished quite a bit after he was gone. I pondered if I should or if I shouldn’t for quite a while after. But in the end, I just couldn’t do it, because I knew that would make CP sad. Plus, I still loved to fansub and liked chatting with my fansubbing friends. You can say I just hit a very big rut after that tragic day. That’s why I’m still subbing to this day. His spirit and the legacy he left behind keeps me going, year after year. Well, that and my love and passion for fansubbing anime as well. I know he would be proud of me and all the others who he knew that are still subbing to this day. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t recall things about CP. He has left a lasting impression on me and so many others. I would truly like to thank him for that. CP is our “eternal fansubbing mascot”. Rest in peace, my dear friend. For you have earned it. I miss you a lot, but know that you’re not in pain anymore. Please watch over all of us and keep us motivated to sub on another day, week, month, and year. 🙂